shop, shop, shop

Saturday was a nice day as "little mama" and I went shopping. We were able to find her a much needed pair of maternity jeans. She is starting to look (and feel) very preggie and the unpreggie cloths are no longer working for her. So we got those jeans, she also got a much needed pair of new shoes (tennis shoes), and we did lunch. Along our travels through the mall I was able to pick myself up a couple pairs of (oh so comfy!) pants for work, and some tops. We also stopped at Border's and I got a White Chocolate Maple Latte (yum!) and little mama got her usual frozen java concoction. THIS is the only way she will touch anything labeled as coffee. I tend to try the new stuff whenever we stop in.

I am glad we spent the day together. Those days are far and few so I try to grab them when I can. She usually just goes on the next day non effected by the time spent together so it seems; but I am always left with a soft reminder that I am still her mother and I can still have fun with my "not so little anymore" little girl.

Our next day together will be on Tuesday. This is ultrasound day. THE DAY! The day we find out if the baby is a girl or a boy. We are both excited! :)

hugs,
lady t

Chit Chat with Miss B

Miss B called tonight as she always does. We had a nice chat about food, friends, houses, birthdays, and cookies. Miss B and her hubby had a friend from the unit over for dinner last night. Miss B made ribs, baked potatoes, and I believe she had salad. The guys just luved the dinner. She said everything turned out real good. She also made cookies and they watched movies after the guys messed around in her hubbies music room.

While chatting I glanced at the bowl of apples sitting on my counter. I told her not to forget about my fried apples that she could make. They taste so good in the fall with a pork dinner or as a topping with vanilla ice cream. I made macaroni casserole and told her not to forget that she could make that to. The casserole is my mothers recipe that I remember well when I was growing up in the 70's. I like to give her little ideas on things she can make since she is a new wife. 

Then we talked about the holidays and how stuff is being put out so early in the stores. She has her first house now that she can have fun decorating. She told me all her holiday decorating plans. She was telling me how she wants to decorate for Halloween and also have a party. She wants to make all that awesome Halloween food and stuff. I reminded her that when she comes for Thanksgiving I have a box full of her ornaments from her years growing up that I have been saving for her first Christmas tree in her first house. We both also realized that she will be here for her birthday (11/29) and we both thought that is just awesome! 

It is so nice to chit chat with her about cooking, decorating , and other stuff. She really enjoys having her own home. Mr. C - her hubby told her the other night during dinner....... that he is so glad he married her because she can cook and her food is so good. She told him she learned from her mother - that made me feel good! :) She does make me proud. I guess I never really realized how much she paid attention. It makes me feel good that she learned from myself and hubJ. She always tells me how she use to watch everything that we did - and she picked up on it. Right down to paying bills, shopping, and making major decisions. She also took a Career Planning class in school and that helped prepare her to. They had to work on a big project which involved finding a mock job, place to live, car, internet, cable, cell phone, grocery shop, furniture shop for the place they found and so on. I don't know about the other students but her eyes where really opened up to what life is going to be like for her. I remember while she was working on the project she was really stressing out because she was running out of money - like it was for real. She watched her pay check just fly away! She has told me many times since getting married that the class really helped prepare her. Everything she did on that project in school she is doing right now in real life. That class was a requirement when she was in school. I think that class is the best subject that educators have come up with. It really wakes some students up! 

I really enjoyed my mother/daughter chat this evening!

hugs,
lady t

Who knew?

While reading a friends blog tonight I was introduced to something different. There seems to be a site for people who suffer "blog block" and can't think of anything to write about. Who knew?

suggested by Blogletting.com

"My neighbor has a bumper sticker that reads: "Remember Who You Wanted To Be". Did you grow up to be who you always wanted to be as a child?"

While there she found the above question and expanded upon it. My interest was peaked and I was glued to the monitor as I read about how her life compared to what she thought she would be when she grew up. That got me thinking. Has my life turned out the way I thought it would? Have "I" turned out who I thought I would be? No. But that no does not carry negativity with it. I have realized long time ago that if I did not follow the paths I took I would not be where I am at today. Although today often brings with it many challenges; I wouldn't change anything. I have two beautiful daughters. Although my relationship with one is not what I would like for it to be. Maybe now is not the time for it - maybe that time is coming. I am about to be a grandmother, a gift from the very same daughter. I am sure there is meaning here somewhere and a reason behind it. I have watched my other daughter grow up and leave at 18 and marry the soldier man that she fell in love with. I am proudly watching all my hard work in teaching her come to life as she starts her new married life out in her first home. She has learned well from the lessons I taught. I have gained a son-in-law so even though I have two girls I also now have a son! I am with a man who is everything to me and he makes me feel that I am everything to him. He doesn't hesitate to show me how much he cares about me. His devotion is 100% in all he does. There is nothing he wouldn't do for me and I love him very much. Yes my plans when I grew up was to get married, have a family, live in a really nice house, and have a job that expressed my artistic side somehow. Well - I got married once - not to the man I am with now. It was the worst mistake I ever made. I have my children. That really nice house I once had, but then lost. We have had to go back on rent and have that grand American dream of owing our own home just dry up and disappear - but I couldn't be happier. I have had several jobs that not necessarily were artistic but they were creative in one way or another! My last job I used my creative side not to draw, sketch, or create a poster. I used my creative side to help other people go to school, work towards an education, better themselves. I used my creative side to encourage someone who was scared to take a first college course and gave them some inspiration. Although it was not the best of jobs and the place itself was under poor management, I was rewarded by knowing that someone is going to get a good education because I helped make it possible.

To finish answering the question at hand. I don't think I exactly turned out the way I pictured I would when I grew up. Some things are different and I am glad they are because if they weren't; those that I love so much would not be part of my life.

Thanks for the inspiration elenajane which gave me a reason to look back on things!

hugs,
lady t

coming together

yay! i fixed the blog mess i created!

i like the results so far :)

hugs,

lady t

under construction

trying to give my blog a new look......

hugs, terri

raindrops keep falling on my head

raindrops keep falling on my head.... la la la la dee dee dee....
the rain has been coming down since yesterday - with a few minor breaks here and there. yesterday was just some sort of front that moved through - today/tonight is "ike". flood warnings, high wind advisories, not sounding to good. for now there is just rain coming down - no scary stuff happening. so i have the smooth jazz on, of course have my coffee and just doing "stuff" on the computer.

talked to daughterB and they got hit really bad last night. lost power for awhile. now it is in the 60's in MO. looks like our temps are dropping as well with the rain. 73 degrees at the memento! it has been so humid here today. I haven't been able to do a thing with my hair - i hate that!

this is going to sound weird but..... daughterB thinks she seen my dad (her papa). she caught a glimpse of a figure in her house the other day - it was quick - but she could make out some detail that seemed to be papa. i told her he came to her to let her know how proud he is of her - and to see her first house! i know some people don't believe - and that is ok because they have their own beliefs - but i believe and i believe he was there.

daughterA and baby are doing fine. she goes on sept. 30th (rescheduled) for an ultrasound and find out what it is. i will be going with her since i have that day off from work. she is most definitely looking pregnant these days!
and feels pregnant too. oh how well i remember those days!!

hugs,
lady t

ickyness

I have blogged, I have plurked, and now I am****** well ****** pooped!!
It all started with that nasty 4 letter word "WORK".
It is icky outside/inside with humidity.
A wet rainy day that has increased the ickyness as the day went on.
There seriously needs to be a cool breeze somewhere - oh wait - did I just feel a little one come through the window? NOPE!
Now imagine >>>> just a few days ago >>>> it went down to 46 degrees at night!
So I guess I need to revise my opening line to......
" I have blogged, I have plurked, and now I am ***** well ***** pooped & icky!
ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

hugs,
lady t

one down, one to go

I had my ESI (epidural steroid injection) today. My 2nd one is scheduled for 9/23. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. The only part I really felt is the shot in order to numb the area. Even that wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. The doctor inserted a skinny catheter that lead to the nerve that is pinched and then he injected the medication in through that right to the area around the nerve. He was able to see it all on a monitor. He said I should start feeling better (noticing a difference) in about 3 to 4 days. We will see how it goes.

It feels like a typical fall day.The temp is in the 70's with a bit of a coolness to the day with sunshine. A perfect day actually to visit a cider mill! :) HubJ and I want to go this year. It has been a few years. This time will be without the kids. We need some "get away" time for just the two of us.

hugs,
lady t

kids

Why do kids not listen to parents? Of course when they are younger they want to do their own thing their own way - but then when they grow up that is suppose to change. They are suppose to look to their parents for guidance. I am so upset that my 20 yr old daughter who is pregnant does not want MY guidance. I am suppose to be there for her. I am trying to be there for her. She just pushes me away. I want to be part of her life so bad. I want to be able to share in this moment with her. She insists on listening to OTHER people before she listens to me IF she listens to me at all. It hurts that I can't be a part of my daughters life. She acts like I don't know what she is going through. I have 2 daughters and have gone through VERY hard times so I think that makes me qualified to say I know what she is going through. I have always wanted better for my children - every parent does. I often have asked myself why I am going through the experiences that I am going through. I have tried to figure out the reasoning behind it. I have finally realized the other day that if I didn't go through the hard times and experiences that I did I wouldn't be able to guide my daughters. I can give them advice. I can give them hope and encouragement. I can help them get through each day that they are experiencing the same issues that I once did. But it breaks my heart that I have one daughter who won't let me do that. Instead she gets mad at ME because of the way the world is. Of course I still love her. I will always love her. I just hope one day she realizes that I am here.

hugs,
lady t

happy weekend everyone!

The weekend is here! YAY!! Even though it was only a 4 day work week because of the Labor Day weekend it still felt like a long week. I am getting settled into my job. Still learning lots of stuff. Yesterday I felt a bit overwhelmed - but I handled it good. The director of the special ed department told me yesterday that I am do a good job and she is happy to have me working in the office. That was really nice of her - and it felt good to get a compliment. Compliments are not something that I am use to from the other office I worked at. They could care less if you existed really. To me - that is the worst thing management can do. You get me productivity out of your employees if you let them know they mean something to the company.

I also started up my PT again this past week. I can't stand PT. I think they are mixing in some chiropractic therapy this time. I have a really nice therapist  - PJ - and he was doing some new stuff to my back. I am scheduled this coming Tuesday for my first epidural steroid injection (ESI). I am so nervous. The thought of having a needle stuck into my spine freaks me out. It is x-ray guided so they inject right where the problem is. The script is for two and my second ESI is scheduled for Sept 23rd. They have to be two weeks apart.

We have been in need of rain so bad here. We got a little bit over the last couple days but not nearly enough to help the burnt grass that everyone has in their yards. We need a good day of steady rain from morning till night to really soak into the ground. When you walk on the grass it is "crispy" with a "crunchy" sound!!

Speaking of crispy and crunchy - I found the coolest thing at the pet store the other day for our pet rabbit ANGEL. I bought her a "salad bowl" which is a bow made out of hay (looks like a birds nest) and it is filled with dehydrated apples and cranberries. She loved it! The best part of the deal is she can eat the bowl - which she is happily working on a little each day. :) Of course everyone else had to get treats that day - the dogs got rawhide chew sticks and bagel chew treats. The cat got a springy mouse toy. The trip was actually to get bird seed for the birds which they did get. There was a cute little dog there that day in the shopping cart doing her grocery shopping with her owner! :) If I had the money I could really spend it in that store - I love shopping for the pets. When I come home they are so excited as I pull each item out of the bag. It is like Christmas for them!!

Until next time.......

hugs,
lady t